kittymagic85

04:05 pm: ~Not AnyMore~
So the Me and Katie thing isn't anymore. She is still hooked on her ex girlfriend.. and I don't think that I could just go along with it because I especially care about her for some odd reason. Really odd... she doesn't show how she feels and the only way she can is on paper but I personally think that actions speak louder then words.. but hey that's me. She drinks alot.. and Drinks n Drives! Can you say Stupid!?! Oh man.. I know how guys feel now about the whole chicks saying that they are fat.. because FUCK! You prolly aren't. Katie does that all the time and she is far from fat.. and if she is fat.. then what does that make me? Gosh! She lies.. She smokes.. She comes to me when her ex isn't around and that doesn't work for me. She was all over me last night and wanted me.. but I couldn't handle it... I got up and left because I think that she's just fucking around with me now! Bitch!

Above all that.. I still want her and love her (as a person) and will be there for her. WHY??? Gosh.. If it was any guy it would just be "Oh he's just another Asshole guy.. " Yeah! no big deal! Why is it such a deal with her.. I could just go and find another girl but I don't know.. it's something about her. Girls are just so emotional.. and she makes me more emotional to be with her/ around her. I am not one of these sappy girls.. I date tons of guys and hurt them.. I'm with them and then ditch them.. no big DEAL! But whatever..

I don't think that I can do the whole girl thing anyways.. I had a speacial friend come over and I think that the sex with men is better.. I just didn't remember what I was missing. LoL.. and also.. girls are too much to handle.. I want to be the one that is chased after.. the one that is worked for and romanced.. and my face to be grabbed and them to be the aggressive one.. MMMMMM!

But anyways.. Since me and Katie broke up I have met a few guys. I just have to see how it goes with them.. with an evil look on my face.. LoL just kidding. Once I find out which ones are the keepers I'll loose the other ones. What I really want is Camarena.. But he's such a Gemini! I think that he's Atlantis.. the one that I prolly can't have.

01:30 pm: So WhaT HaPPeNDs NeXT?
KATIE!!! KiT KaT KaTie!!! Yummmmmm... I really like Katie.. gosh I'm so lesbo for her.. Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie!!!!! Alrighty well I had to get that out..

So what's really going on is that I am confused. I really like Katie and I know that she likes me too.. I mean she texts me and calls me to hang out and she flirts with me.. a party I went to she wanted me to leave and come see her and I did and she was all over me and she made me a cute card.. and she gave me an invitation for a party for two (it was really cute) and we went to the movies last night. But like this is all so unreal and cool.. but she just broke up with her girlfriend of 2 years a couple nights ago. I don't know if this will work.. don't rebounds like never work.. but I guess that their relationship wasn't that good because we've been hanging out for the last two weeks and she hardly ever was busy or talking to her gf you know? but I guess that she wasn't good to Katie.. which is so crazy because Katie is the sweetest.. and cutest.. how could you be mean to her?

Ahhh.. I just don't know though.. She is like the only girl that I really like.. and I don't want to blow anything.. but I don't want to get hurt also. I guess I will just wait it out and see what happends.. her birthday is on the 5th.. I don't know what to get her.. but I am thinking some flowers.. she cute as a romantic. And I want to do something really cute for her.. but I don't know where we stand. I don't want to talk to her about it because I want to go with the flow and not scare her away.. but she has come on to me strong and I have been going with that.. but I don't want to come on to her strong like she would back up.. because I love all the attention that I am getting from her.

I just don't know.. why do thinks have to be so difficult?? LoL.. also I think that she's kind of possessive.. because when we went to the movies.. some guys tried to open the door for us and she grabbed the other door and held both doors open for me. LoL. She's darling. I also know that she gets jealous and I don't want to date any guys to make her jealous.. and now that Jessica Wilson is my friend again and Katie is Jessicas best friend I can't talk to her.. or tell her if I am dating another guy.. but I wouldn't want to do anything to jeopardize the lingering whatever we have. I don't know what it is about her but I really like her. And it isn't for show.. you know like some girls are all over other girls in public... I still like to be around her and want things even when we are alone. I would never try and hurt her.

Grrr.. Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie Katie.. oh gosh.. I am getting like obsessed.. I think I need some space.. because I am getting confused.. if you let something go and they are still around then it is good.. so I'll just see how she reacts.

01:37 pm: SnOw BoArDINg!!!!
<sup>Well.. Hmmmm.. I got a Job!!! It's fun! I'm actually at work right now. I am and Administrative Assistant at Legacy Productions in Santa Rosa. And what the company is it buys/sells/and has gallary showings of the Art work of John Lennon. Pretty cool huh? In case you dont' know who that is.. it's a Freaking BEATLE!!! Crazy huh? Yoko Ono owns the company. Anyways.. that's what has been taking up my day time m-f. I get to wear what I want.. take a break when I want.. go on the computer.. and my boss is hella cool.. and we don't have to be on time.. just as long as your here around the time your supposed to. I can talk on the phone while I'm doing my work and I can go online. Crazy huh? But yeah.. that's my job! And love those pay checks.. mmmmhmmmm..

Love life---- hmm.. well not much their.. except I got to see Eric on valentines day. :) He came over to hang out and cuddle.. but I had other things on my mind. ;) He's been kind of different towards me lately.. it's odd.. but at the same time I kind of like it. But I don't know if we could ever be more then freaky friends. Wouldn't that be bad to do?? It would change everything.. and if we stopped seeing each other we might not be freaky friends anymore and then what would I do? LoL. But then again if things are good, then this could be a great thing. But I am wayyyy jumping the gun.... things prolly won't change at all.. and that's fine with me.
I didn't really have a valentine.. but Trevor says that we are Valentines.. Oookay! That's cool with me. I'm not lonely after all! LoL. But I didn't even see him on valentines.. but the day after.

Jessica and I went with Brittney/Casey's family to Tahoe, this past weekend. Went snowboarding for the first time. OMG!!!!!!!!!!! (Oh My Gosh.. that is) It is like the funnest thing ever. So much better then skiing, at least that's what I think. I can't wait to go again. We might go on monday.. NO school! But we'll see.


Can't wait till this weekend..
Friday - Going to rocket bowl with Nathan, Ben, Brittney and who ever..
Saturday - Going to Scotts Party.. Love those parties at Dustins.. plus I invited Eric
Sunday - Sleep Sleep Sleep.. auuuuuuhhhhhhhh.. maybe shop!</sup>

10:08 pm: SCHOOLS BACK IN SESSION! I have History 17.1, English 100 for the second time... so much freaking work, Business math.. my only class at the Santa Rosa JC, and Psych 3... HUMAN SEXUALITY.. so much fun! But man gets you horney.. their are like 3 or 4 really cute guys in that class. I'm so glad that schools back in session.

I get paid on friday.. SHOPPING!!! Can't wait.. so excited.

Well I've just been hanging out with Ben and Nate.. hung out with Eric a few nights ago.. and Brittney. What fun!!! LoL.. Nothing too new and exciting.. But CJ's in town.. finally.. I love and miss him. Havne't seen him yet.. he's with his Dad's family in San Jose.. but soon he'll come here.

02:39 am: Woah!!!! It's been a while..
Well it's been FOREVER!!! since I've wrote in this. But it's good.. not always on the computer anymore.. psshhh.. myspace.com has been keeping me plenty occupied. So what's new?????? huh....hmmmm...
School starts monday!! Can't wait.. love school.. got all night classes so I can have a real job. I'm at a temp agency and my jobs change. Next week.. I am a data entry girl. Get my own cubical and don't have to dress up.. Whoo-hoo! I worked at Kohl's for a while.. hated it.. quite it. Althought Kyle was a h-o-t-t-i-e their. I got closer with Boston Autos one and only Jason! He's a sweetheart.. but haven't talked to him in a while. I met a girl Kayla their.. she's cool.. we've been hanging out. (Like the party on New Years... fun!)
Hmm... Brittney and I are good. Saw Corey the other day.. it was like forever since I've seen her.. it was real cool. Christina and I got a gym membership together so we've seen eachother like crazy, but then our membership expired and well... we haven't hung out much. But she moved in with her boyfriend. She's kind of occupied at the moment. Steven's still my good buddy. New good friends: Nate.. and.. Daniel.

The Dating world.. well.... been seeing different people.. they all didn't work out.. so no point in mentioning them. Am I picky or what?

02:36 am: I wonder how things will turn out in the end?
Life keeps on throwing me and Bradley together, around eachother, with our still there hot vibe, hot touch, and heat we always have. When I was around him, I was happy, no front, was only thinking about him, not anything else. Women think to much, at least I do.. made crazy thoughts that drive me insane. Maybe a prayer that I could have.. is to silence all these thoughts in my head, clear my head! (shhh... quiet my freaking head!)

11:32 pm: WOW!!!!!
WOW.. THE STARS AND THE GALAXIES.. WOAH!
Maybe my soul mate is on a whole other galaxy.. I hope not.. boy do I hope not. I hope he's near. I hope I haven't already met him and dismissed him.. or threw him away.. or ever was rude to him.
so excited.. about this school yeah. I think it is going to be good. I saw some old kids that went to my high school that I hadn't of talked to much.. but they were cool and I could tell by the way that they looked at me.. that they were like "wow.. she changed"
I was in spanish.. and dang... I understood hella of it.. wow.. it's so cool. I so hope that I get really good at it. I am really going to try this year.
I met a girl off the internet..she's hella cool. Her names Monika and her brothers cute/sweet. But anyways.. she's got a kids.. who's adorable, and she's all in all fun.

11:46 pm: Blah!
I am soo sick of men. I want to not date or anything for a while. Be single. I think that is what I need. Mike.. he is talking to me again. He drives me crazy. I want to get over him. I know why God did that though.

Aaron.. he's an asshole.. I went to the fair tonight and saw him and it was cool. But he can't take advantage or me. I am cool about kissing him whatever... but fuck, get off me.

I want friends, and friends first. I want to get busy with work and school and friends. Dating .. especially relationships is on hold for a while...

So not me.. but how am I supposed to have one if I am not over others???

10:55 pm: I got this and it made me think...
Read Each One Carefully and Think About It a Second or Two

1. No man or woman is worth your tears, and the one who is, won't make you cry.

2. Just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them to, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

3. A true friend is someone who reaches for your hand and touches your heart.

4. The worst way to miss someone is to be sitting right beside them knowing you can't have them.

5. Never frown, even when you are sad, because you never know who is falling in love with your smile.

6. To the world you may be one person, but to one person you may be the world.

7. Don't waste your time on a man/woman, who isn't willing to waste their time on you.

8. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one, so that when we finally meet the person, we will know how to be grateful.

9. Don't cry because it is over, smile because it happened.

10. There's always going to be people that hurt you so what you have to do is keep on trusting and just be more careful about who you trust next time around.

11. Make yourself a better person and know who you are before you try and know someone else and expect them to know you.

12. Don't try so hard, the best things come when you least expect them to.

13.Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll still land among the stars.

14.Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark; professionals built the Titanic!



15.When you were born, everyone around you was smiling and you were crying. Live your life so that when you die, you're smiling and everyone around you is crying


REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS, HAPPENS FOR A REASON.

Happiness is only in your heart so Love yourself and you will always have Peace
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11:16 pm: This heart ache..
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I have faith!

I have never been so lost in my life. I have these guys or whatever.. but they don't mean much to me.. it just passes the time. I am cute.. I have guys to date.. but why do I only want someone else.. someone new? There isn't a spare moment in the day that I am not praying to GOD.. Or at least looking to the sky for answers.

If I don't ask for another thing in my whole life it will only be this.. to get awesome guy!! I would be fine with that(even though he might not be my soul mate). I believe that once you have the man of your heart.. the one that holds the key and makes every day better with just him being in it. That everything else in life will fall into place. I just want to make him smile, wipe away his tears, hold his hand and make love with him every day.. for the rest of our fulfilled,loving, happy life's together.

07:29 pm: Upon Request...
Updating Upon Request..

Alrighty well.. me and that guy Tyler have been going together.. he's cool.. just wayyyyy to into his body. This guy goes Tanning, goes to the Gym and always is flexing and whatever. I think he's really sweet though. Doesn't pay attention. Man, Repeating yourself a milion times sucks!! One more thing.. he wears the same thing like every day. I swear he only has like 3 outfits... blue, white, or black wifebeater, and either his black flame shorts, orange flam shorts or his pair of pants. I need variety!!! I have seen his closet it isn't like he only has that. Anyways.. enough complaining about him. He's a real cool guy.. but I am going to be friends with him soon. My mom says that the reason that I lose interest is because I am scared that someone can be attached to me and I don't want to give that back. Don't know.. she usually is right..
I just need to tell him how I feel... "Sorry.. I'm just not that into you!"

12:04 pm: Tyler...
Well.. I have been talking to someone.. I guess. His name is Tyler. He is really cute. And he's been in my back yard the whole time.. figuratively speaking..He lives close though. Cool Cool. So, there are people in Rohnert Park that I haven't met yet. He's tall and he plays rugby. He's a sweetheart. And he earned big points with me because we had intellectual conversations (what most guys have never heard of) about real stuff. And he hasn't asked me what kind of Underwear I wear.. or anything about how I am in bed. That is how a good guy is, A real MAN. Some guys could learn from reading that. Like Steven... good guy.
Anyways.. I have been trying to find a new job. I quite the car dealership.. yay! Finally. These are my last two days. I hate it here.. but they are really nice to me.. they tell me that they'll miss me and if I need anything to come on in. Sweet of them. I just might. What I really want is to work at Best Buys. I hope I hope I hope I get it.. figures majorly crossed. I remember working at Anchor Blue and that was alot of fun, just didn't get enough money and there I will. I really want to work in the Car Audio section. How cool would that be? But I think that it would just be cool to work there anyways. Don is trying to get me hired and if he does he will get 150$ and he said that he would split it with me. Which would be cool... like a sign on bonus. heehee.
I have been going to Wednesday night market lately. It was mad crazy last Wednesday .. but it was alot of fun. I went to a couple parties.. a bbq at Gregs.. that was fun. I have been hanging out with Matt.. he's hella tight. We went bowling.. he just turned 19.. awww on the first.. heehee.
Well.. me and Tyler met off of hotornot.. but he lives around here.. I meet and hung out with him for the first time yesterday like all day.. it was fun. I also went and saw Gregs band... which they ROCK. A QUIET MIND!!! But anyways.. we are going to hang out tonight too.. yay! I wonder what we are going to do.. I am enthusiastic about it.. even though he's a Aquarius.. but I hope to be proved wrong about my astrology... I really like him.

09:39 am: ????
Okay well lets start with this Optomity job.. I got a call back and she did a phone interview... but I have to wait till this week to get a call back.. and if I do, that means that I get the chance to get interviewed. I really want it. It is a local place.. and it has People Interaction! That is good. It would be alot of fun, I think.
Joshua and I are alright. I don't know if he is as crazy about me as I am about him.. but lets hope so.. because I think that he is a real charmer. He said that he couldn't see me untill the week.. next week prolly. And I was like " oh, alright" because he has work to do at his new place. But then he called me on my phone like 15 minutes later and was like.. "Do you always leave your window down on your car?" And he was out side.. YAY! I like surprises!!!! He's very sweet to me.. I love how he wakes me up.. playing with my hair. He drives me crazy sometimes. I am content around him. Yeah.. lets see how long this lasts. I don't know.. but I came up with a sexual rule to control myself.. who me?? LoL.. nothing till we get along for like two or three months.. because after a month, to me, is when shit starts to get sour and I stop seeing them. If we are gravy by then.. then it's all good.
Been hanging out with different people lately.. a guy named Will.. we went to the beach. Alex.. been watching movies with him and chilling. We went to the mall and people thought we were going out.. neither of us corrected them.. whatever.. it was funny. Dan... Andy's friend. yeah.. I don't know.. just different people... it's been cool.

"I believe that once you find true love, Your whole life will be great. As long as Love can see you through. Everything will fall into place after being with the one that you are supposed to be with." - Some guy.. LoL

12:09 pm: Peter and Brittney sitting in a tree...
Me and Josh are great.. he is such a cutie.. heehee.. I can't wait for my mom to meet him. Brittney met him and Peter..hmmm.. and Peter, click! Brittney and Peter are soo alike! Like they are like lint on black.. Like Vanilla and the oreo cookie.. Like chips and salsa.. Like BBQ chips and Coddage cheese.. Like a fat kid and krispy kremes.. get it?!? LoL! I have been staying the night with him alot this week. I love waking up next to someone again. I am starting to be really crazy about him. He's so romantic.. everyday he's like "Have I told you your beautiful today?" heehee.. every day! And then he grabs my face (cheek/jaw) with one hand and with the other slides it into my hair .. tuggs slightly.. hmmm.. (drool) and then kisses me. ALL the TIME! Wow.. that makes me glow.. yup yup. Can't wait to see what happeneds.. He lives by the beach now.. so it's fun. Wonder what God has in store for me. It's odd.. I didn't think that it would last this long.. and I would be coo coo for cocoa pop for him.. but I am.. so far.. everything has been.. well perfect. (stars in my eyes)

Otherwise this week.. I got a call from a job.. and I called them back.. so keep your fingers crossed they haven't picked someone already.. and they will call back.. it is for optomitry.. fun fun.. and they want people who wear contacts.. WINNER! right here!

My week has been okay.. haven't gone to the beach this week.. ;( me and brittney got into a little agruement.. well I was upset with her.. but no worries.. life is good. I love Corey and miss her.... I hope she had a good Birthday.. I love you and HAPPY BIRTHDAY again.. yay! She's great.. and I love her.. (LoL.. I already said that)..She deserves lots of Love. God Damn guys are stupid though.. everyone knows that.

12:03 pm:

Take the What
animal best portrays your sexual appetite?? Quiz

09:42 am: Future..
Well.. Joshua and I have been hanging out alot this week. I went to the beach mucho this week. I am really Tan, kind of burned. Ekk!! It's cool I will get better.
But Josh is a cool cat and I enjoy haning out with him. He hasn't met my parents yet.. I don't know what they would say.. but with time.. we'll see what happeneds.
I hung out with Brooks on tuesday for that 107.1 bbq.. it was cool.. I went to his house.. we talked..
LOL>>>> I was talking to my mom about moving out.. and she said that I don't have to move out untill I am 40, then she will complain. Yeah right .. I don't want to stay there past 23. And I told her that... and she said.."I really can't see you living here past 20, you'll find a guy and move out with him." I was like "YEAH!" I hope that is true.. cuz then that will mean that I will be in love again... in a relationship...a serious one.. and very happy, cuz I wouldn't be in one unless I was happy.
I can't wait for the future!

09:58 am: Life...
Wow.. when life gives you lemons.. you make lemonade. Man.. does God throw us the screwiest balls?
Dan wrote me and he asked me for a favor and then rubbed in about his girlfriend.. and I was kind of sad about it.. because I know that I messed up with him.. but we did break up for a reason.. and I know it was good. Love can last through everything.. and he said that he loved me and would never let me go.. and he did. So were we every really "In Love?" He's happy and that's all that matters.. because I don't think that we could be happy together.. I want him to better himself.. and he doesn't. (He never graduated.. and I tried to get him to go back to school.)
But anyways.. the highlight of my week... Me and Corey went to the beach with Chris and some of his friends. And there.. I met someone. I was brave.. I went up and picked him up.. that was great. I should do that more often. His name is Josh.. he's a cutie. He's 25 though.. that doesn't bother me so much. He's cool.. and the maturity level is there.. were so far very compatiable. He left today to go to a wedding in Arizona.. but I will see him when he comes back. He kissed me the best way. I literally melted. Man.. he knows how I like it. Grabbed my face and my hair and pulled me close to him and looked in my eyes and kissed me. I was in a freaking fairy tale.. I swear it. It was under the stars.. looking upon the city.. what is more romantic then that? (speechless).. only problem so far is that he has a 1 and a half year old.. wow.. that is harsh.. what would I do? I don't know.. it's nothing serious right now.. but what if it does get serious? I don't know what I would do. But I will just let God lead the way... he knows what is best.
Am I crazy???
I talked to Brooks after class for like an hour.. he waited for me because we had tests.. such a sweety.. I didn't ask him for his number. What makes me so sure that he likes me in the first place? Well I think that I am going to ask him to go with me on tuseday though.. 107.1 is having a bbq at the JC.. which should be fun.. I would love to be his friend. But I think I got to many other things going on right now..
I think that I did okay on my test.. thank goodness.. school is almost over.. wow! I R smart... I need to get a job .. like for real!

09:22 am: Spring Break!
I had a whole lot of fun this week. I went to Kodiaks on Thursday... that was sooo much fun. I really got into it. And all the girls and guys get to go around in a circle and dance with everyone.. see everyone. It was cool. I was like.. ohhh.. I like you.. and you.. heehee. Picking out of the bunch. But I went with Corey and saw a whole lot of people from my high school and things.. like a reunion.. I swear. After we hung out with Nickola (sp) and his friend Tony.. that was fun.. Tony is a good dancer.. very out going.. and a good cuddlier.. what can I say? heehee.. anyways.. umm.. the begining of the week was slow.. but I got a job interview on monday.. yay! for me! At a loan agency... and there is room for advancement.. so it is all good.
I have hung out with my Steven this week.. he's a sweetheart.. always a good time. but he's a brat when we watch scary movies.. but what guy isn't.. LoL
WoW! I went to the car wash yesterday.. and guess who was there? ....... Eric Camarena... good thing I went and washed my car.. because I wasn't even going to anymore... wow.. God brings us to weird places with odd people. But he got my number and kissed me good bye.. I was like woah! Eric.. wow.. didn't expect that.. but hey.. single free.. heehee.. and he's a big cutie! He texted me later and was like.. "well it was good seeing you." So I called him.. I wasn't nervous or anything.. surprised because I had a crush on him in school.. LoL. But anyways.. I called him and we chatted for like an hour.. and he was beating around the bush that he wanted to see me.. so finally I invited him over.. and he came over last night. Eric.. at my house.. wow.. and we hung out for like an hour n a half... then he left.. He's quite a good kisser. If we hang out again.. that would be great..but if we don't hang out again, that cool tooo.. I got what I wanted all through high school.. kisses! heehee
Haven't seen much of Brittney lately =( .. she's been working alot.. and sick.. no fun!
I went over to Don's with Corey, to go visit Chris.. that was fun... Don and Chris made us dinner and dessert and we watched movies.. Happy Tree Friends.. hmmm... not really liking that two much.. but whatever.. Chris has his own thing going on usually.. he is totally his own person.. that's what I like so much about him. We were all going to go to the city dancing last night.. but that was fine by me that we didn't go... The night worked out fine for me. heehee...
Well.. Aaron called me on easter.. that was sweet of him. My mom invited him over for dinner but he didn't come.. he had duty. oh well. Brittney and Casey came over for dinner and that was fun. It was our last dinner with our good friend Diana.. that's not too exciting. She's moving to Louisiana. So far away!
My brother C.J. was around for the holiday.. that was cool.. I missed him.. he looks soo skinny though.. he needs to gain some weight.. and he says he wants to loose more.. wow.. scary. hmmm...
Stephanie Shurtz came over on Easter.. that was a cool reunion. I missed her.. and she looks happy.. so it's all good. She brought her friend.. her friend was hella cool.. I liked her.. funny as hell.. heehee..

All in all I had a really good week... my job interview is on Monday.. Wish me LUCK!

09:15 am: Woah..
It's been a while huh? LoL.. well anyways.. I didn't have that party on Sunday. Which was good.. cuz I feel asleep hella early anyways.. I lost all my sleep.. and my parents came home monday morning.. I was cool.. I missed them. OMG.. She brought me home HELLO KITTY suckers.. yay!
Been hanging out with Brittney, Corey and Steven lately.
Brittney and I met this guy last night.. off the internet.. from myspace.com.. and he was cool.. we are all going to hang out again. We went and played pool with him and his friend. He's chill.. It was crazy though.. I didn't even know what he looked like at all.. but you can't never have enough friends.. and yup! He's another friend.. LoL
Steven and I have been watching loads of movies lately.. he's chill.. I like hanging out with him. He's fun and we are hella chill friends... It kind of makes me miss Andy.. they are both Libras... hella layed back people.
OMG.. funny thing about Libra's.. There is this kid in my class... well he isn't really a kid.. I thought that he was 19 but he is really 21.. even better!! But anyways.. I totally guessed that he is a Libra! Freaky huh? NO wait.. listen to this.. I think I might be psycic or something.. because there is this kid online named Ian.. that works at a gas station.. and I was talking to Brittney and I was like.. watch he works there.. and he does.. so weird! And a couple other things but I am not going to go into details about it. Anyways.. the guy in my class' name is Brooks.. and he's a hella cool person so far.. he knows somewhat about cars.. yay! It is the biggest turn off when I know more about them. He has a recording studio in his home.. he makes beats.. he works at Nordstrums.. (he's into fashion).. I can't wait to get to know him more...

Me and Corey went to Jeff's and we partied with him. It was fun. Then everyone left.. and I went over to Mike's(Campbells).. and JD was there.. (of course they are brothers!) And I went up stairs and woke him up.. and didn't expect it.. but then we were wrestling around in the sheets.. heehee..nothing happend really.. but he bit me.. oh yeah.. and hard.. Kinky! He kisses so good though.. The guy that I am going to spind the rest of my life with is going to kiss and touch me like that.. I was in heaven!
Wow.. I am back in the dating scene.. that didn't last long. I am way to Boy Crazy huh?
Went shopping with my Mom and Dad on Thurseday to Vaccaville Outlets.. Yeah! I spent alot.. oh man. But got alot. The Sanrio there is going to be closing.. that sucks. I spent like 60 there. I love that store! But I had fun hanging out with my Mommy and Daddy. We went to Pizza Puck and had pizza.. now that is interesting.
I had a dream about Mike Mullnix.. it was good.. I got some of his kisses again.. boy did I love those.. But I don't think that I ever will again.. I don't understand.. Why did God make me think about him? Why can't I just forget everything about him? He's an asshole anyways.. and I don't want him anymore.. I wonder if he thinks about me at all? I talked to Aaron today.. that was weird..I am over what he did to me.. but we prolly wont be as close anymore... but whatever... Just like most guys he gave me alot of promises.. that will never be forfilled.. Just like other guys..Dan!! He said that he will love me forever and never let me go.. that he will always be in my life, no matter what! That isn't something that he kept me.

11:36 am: FREEEE...
Ouch... mmmmkay.. now I am feeling it.. my head hurts some. Well.. had some people over lastnight.. just a small get together.. it was okay. But on sunday.. Yay.. that is going to be fun.. another get together... well see how that goes. I kind of like having my parents out of town.. and I have the house to myself.. doing what I please all the time.. heehee.. I am liking this freedom.. except when I get scared.. but people are just a phone call aways..LoL.. Steven said that I can call him when I need.. so that makes me feel better.. he does live down the street.
Hung out with Steven a few nights ago.. heehee.. he's chill.. we wathced movies at my house..
Ben and Corey broke up.. aww... but it was mutual.. so no worries.

So anyways.. nothing really new.. just been haning out..